10.31.2009

breast cancer fact of the day ...

breast cancer is a diagnosis , not a life prediction .

a lot of Americans have known someone with breast cancer . people always think it cant happen to them . please dont be so naive . check up on yourself , be aware :)

simple .

im just a girl .

a girl who likes the feel of thick books in her palms .
liberating that the inner most thoughts of a "certain someone" is in her posession .
holding on hand under and one on top ... thanking God for "text" .

a girl who loves food .
the sound our mouths make when we chew steak . the circular movement of the lips to tear at the meat .the juice , the "mmm" feeling of A1 sauce on the inside of our left cheek .

a girl who couldnt live without music .
simply unexplainable .

a girl who has unrelented hope in love .
a hug to relieve adversity . a public display of affection . a heartfelt secret . the feeling that she'll do anything to make the other person happy .

im just a girl .

a girl who knows more than she should .
she's seen some things . she's felt some things . most importantly, she understands change . who's "sexy" today, is "old news" the next . some people who are here today, can be gone tomorrow . interests change . mentalities change . things change .


im just a girl . a woman on a good day

90's ...

remember this ? mm hmm ;)

the show .

welcome to the family :
my grandma's sister doin the "dougie" at the wedding reception .
playing dance dance revolution in my cousin's room with my auntie .
my uncle's plate of food stacked high as the ceiling .
my grandparents- telling stories about how they fell in love . chicago . mississippi . georgia .
my cousins ...all gazillion of us , talking all at once , creating ourselves by the conversation .
the elders who get to eat first & remind us all the time why they can :)
the infants . the ones who are just arriving . blessed to be entered into a great clan .
my aunt, who asks, "where's the nearest casino?" .
the cousin who always brings his newest girlfriend .
my aunts who laugh & whisper in the corner about her ?
my brother ...the silent strength who watches and smirks warmly at the chaos we are .
the men : uncles, husbands, dad's, and brothers who sit outside and watch the game on the TV , filling up the air with their deep voices .
"the hole" , this is where it takes place ...where the kids play in the yard. where we live !
the henessy & eggnog . the naughty jokes & all the other things that we arent "meant to hear" .
the prayer . the praise . the thankfulness in our union as a family .


those silences .
when the room remembers my mom's wide smile or terren's
light-hearted laugh .

loud, silent, crazy, tamed, rude & polite, in
your face, fun , protective, sincere, and real ...
we're family .

10.30.2009

windows .

there's something you need to understand .

eyes truely are the window to the soul .
some windows need wiping to see more clearly .
some glass shows our reflection and we need to get over ourselves .
yes, it can be hard to see at times .
but nevertheless ... eyes are windows .

my eyes .
the retina is broken .
i can barely see what use to be light .

your eyes .
your choroid is strong enough for both ....
willing to absorb the light that i cannot .

my eyes .
small little windows,
too small even for alice after the "drink me" .

your eyes .
windows big & grand .
bare, bright and vulnerable ...

if you were ever given the chance ...
you would see my determination , my ambition, my strength . you would see the weight of my chest when i held a grown man's head in comfort . you can see conversations ive had to bring friends out of life or death . you can see the care for the people i love . the primal beast that's willing to protect them . you would see my ingredients .

when i look in yours ...
i see the thirst to be something great . i see the yearning to take care of the ones you love, but have something for yourself . i see sunflower fields . i see a protective power . i see mahogany . passion . a strive for security . i can see the weight of the world on your shoulders . i see your pinch of that, half a cup of this .


song : N.E.R.D - window

moviesss :)

in case you were wondering about that "Brooklyn's finest" movie (w/ jesse williams lol) . here's the trailer :

10.29.2009

breast cancer fact of the day ...

warning signs of breast cancer [dont panic, just see a doctor ... a lot of the time, tumors are benign (non cancerous)]:

•Lump, hard knot or thickening
•Swelling, warmth, redness or darkening
•Change in the size or shape of the breast
•Dimpling or puckering of the skin
•Itchy, scaly sore or rash on the nipple
•Pulling in of your nipple or other parts of the breast
•Nipple discharge that starts suddenly
•New pain in one spot that doesn’t go away

sing to me .

sing me a song ,
passionate. sinful & wrong .

make it drown me in you .
my eyes will smile, but it's way past due .

kill me with your lyric .
then revive my life so quick
that my soul will be reborn .
healed , patched, no longer torn .

a song that connotes fields of red ,
piercing pinks and spirits fed .
water neck high
swaying through, coral brushing my thighs .


sing me a song , dont take long .

10.27.2009

moviesssss :)

okay, so i have this thing for heist movies & weird fantasy movies too . psh, i love movies .
trailer :




and for tim burton's new masterpiece:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LjMkNrX60mA

till' facebook do us part .

people are not meant to fall in love in the 21st century . or are they ?
technologocical advances and fixation on networking have brought the ideas of "fidelity", "trust", "selflessness" and "honesty" to an abrupt stop .

myspace .
because of a profile to "sell yourself" as much as possible, we have become obsessed with ourselves ...and even more terrifying, obsessed with our facade . we worry constantly about how we look in our pictures (photoshopping & editing until we dont recognize ourselves) . we put the most exciting photos of our lives to pretend as if we have one . background pics of gucci and g-shocks to make people think we can afford it . obsessed with ourselves, and no one else . excuse me, we check out other people's pages to see how we can "fit in" . this "all about me" mentality makes it almost impossible to care about anyone else .

facebook .
once upon a time, we used to meet people ...in person ? a glance across the room, a flirty smile, and a witty pick-up line created love to last a life time . people still meet face-to-face and fall for each other ...but the difference is that he goes home and meets 100 more women on networking sites who all send flirty emails and wall posts . the difference is, she's on her iphone and there are five new messages from guys who claim they can treat her "better than her boyfriend" . there has always been cheating in american society, but now ... it's way more convenient .

maybe, just maybe they wont cheat on each other because of unfaithfulness ...but here comes the wammy . this generation has to have the lowest self-esteem . so many online adds about breast enhancement and music videos and models and celebrities . in the same breath, ill connect the idea that the "hey boy, i miss you" and "how you doin beautiful" wall posts can drive a boyfriend or girlfriend insane . insecurities, worries, jealousy, and lack of trust (for fear of being hurt) all fall into the same pot of adversity .

what's even scarier is the fact that those wall posts arent even amunition enough to confront your boyfriend/girlfriend about . ANYONE can post on your wall, anyone can say "they miss you" or "you looked great lastnight" or tag your sweetie in a note about "the one that got away" lol . you can never really know, and that drives people insane .

...texts, aims, video chats, emails, picture messages ? [i know someone who was caught cheating using all of these devices]

can love exist and grow in this generation ? think about it .

10.26.2009

breast cancer fact of the day ...

a word from a celebrity :)

http://ww3.komen.org/FlashViewer/cop-videos/player4/index.html

below the surface

she swung her hot pink acrylic nails across your face .
she is rolling her neck intensively and calling you a plethora of "n*gga" , "bastard" , etc .
she proceeds to tell you that youre a "poor excuse for a man" , "f&*% you", a "b*tch a** n*gga" or any other phrase that needs numerous letter fillers .
now, she is throwing things ...excuse me ... [your things] against the wall and all you can hear is shattering .
youre ipod is cracked against the wall . earphones too .
your watch is s a i l i n g out the window .
your clothes are being soaked in bleach .
she is now holding a brick in one hand & a key in the other ... anticipating the damage that she will do to your shiny, black impala downstairs in the parking lot .

you cheated, yes . but did she have to do all of this ?

so, you take your hand ...make it as heavy as possible , and swing the backside across her cheek .
she is on her knees in the middle of the condo , holding her face & staring at you like a monster .
you call her out of her name and tell her to get the hell out your apartment . police run upstairs because of the commotion . they take both of YOU in handcuffs .

she was mad, yes . but did she deserve that ?

domestic violence happens all the time . no woman deserves to be hit across
the face or hurt in anyway . In the same breath, i'd like to say that some of
these situations can be avoided by better communication skills within the
demographic of african american men and women . Black men and women are very
passionate people . in your face . full of energy . strong-willed . determined .
and we have plenty of attitude . these are good characteristics, but too much of
anything is NOT good . we learn how to interact with one another in a respectful
way without having to always "get even" .

fall all over me .

leaves dip themselves in reds and oranges and yellows .
mellow winds twist and tip over my shoulders and face .

grace lifts from the ground in what we like to call autumn .
bottom to top, subdued in the air and smells .

tell me that you love me in the fall ? those words will be frozen by winter .

the summer heat of passionate love we felt was cooled off by fall's breeze .

when i say frozen, maybe i meant preserved .
when i say cooled, perhaps i should say made sensible ?

who knows . fall is an indifferent season . not cold enough to cuddle in fires with loved ones . not hot enough to bare skin in a hedonistic way . its a minimalistic , fine line of what we want to do ... and what we simply can .


an ode to fall . the misunderstood season of lovers .


song to vibe to: india.arie- the truth

spelhouse gets it in !

homecoming was fun :)

i was all over the place this weekend (explaining my MIA-ness) .









more pics to come later ...


10.25.2009

breast cancer fact of the day ...

The Myth
Finding a lump in your breast means you have breast cancer.

The Truth
If you discover a persistent lump in your breast or any changes in breast tissue, it is very important that you see a physician immediately. However, 8 out of 10 breast lumps are benign, or not cancerous. Sometimes women stay away from medical care because they fear what they might find. Take charge of your health by performing routine breast self-exams, establishing ongoing communication with your doctor, and scheduling regular mammograms.

10.22.2009

what do you think ?

Basically this link is of "Nicole Bitchie's" blog . in her post entitled, "educated professional AA (African American) females should have more babies?" struggles with that question exactly . Women struck in poverty and "ignorance" seem to be producing the most kids and the professional Black women are just "chillin" ? lol ... Her post paraphrases from one of HER favorite blog sites , so i dont want to re-paraphrase lol . sooo, check out her blog , what do you think ?

http://necolebitchie.com/2009/10/22/educated-professional-aa-females-should-have-more-babies

10.21.2009

airplain people .

what is it about airplanes ?
why do people hate to fly so much ?
is it because of the cramped spaces ? is it the bad food ?

OR is it the lack of control ?

i think what people hate the most about airplanes is the fact that they have to be in a confined space with unfamiliar people . they are dropped into a plane and out of their comfort zone . If it was up to the people on the plane, they would be surrounded by people who are just like them ...looks, interests, beliefs, stories . However, that's the beauty of the airline .

an old man with gray hair sits next to you reading Malcolm X. A white, middle-aged lady sits a couple rows over ...holding a picture of her son in a navy suit , serving his country. a red-head baby screaming . A Syrian lady bobbing her head with earphones on full blast . An Equadorian boy watching "White Oleander" on his laptop ...intent . A teenage girl in an Abercrombie sweatshirt reading gossip magazines . Two sisters laughing heavily as they eat their complementary pretzels . A college student reading a novel in her boyfriend's sweatshirt, dozing off and smiling ...

airplanes are the blank canvas that is mixed with all shades and colors of cultures . embrace it :)

breast cancer fact of the day ...

There is no sure way to prevent breast cancer. Some healthy lifestyle choices, however, may help lower your risk and have the added bonus of cutting your risk of heart disease, diabetes, colon cancer and osteoporosis. Everyone should try to:

•Be physically active.
•Maintain a healthy weight.
•Cut down on "bad" fats (saturated and trans fats) and consume more "good" fats (polyunsaturated and monounsaturated fats, like olive and canola oil).
•Take a daily multivitamin with folic acid (often called "folate" on nutrition labels).
•If you drink, limit alcohol intake (to less than one alcoholic drink a day for women and fewer than two drinks a day for men). Those who drink alcohol should try to get enough folic acid, either through a multivitamin or food sources like oranges, orange juice, green leafy vegetables and fortified breakfast cereals.
•If possible, choose to breastfeed children.

adele "make you feel my love"

10.20.2009

pear-shaped .

here it is .

it's not much , but what's left ... is for you .
i wish i could have saved more , preserved more for you .
sometimes i regret not keeping it in better condition for you ... you deserve that at least .


cracked, bruised & wrung out like a wash cloth . hung out to dry like last season's "black" .
it may be out of date to some people, but you see the vintage beauty in it .
all of the gaps are filled with your comfort , thank you .
all of the pains are caressed by your kisses , thank you .
the iceburn was never there, thanks to you .


i tied ribbon around it , tried to distract your eyes from glazing over it's ugly war scars .
i dusted it off , i hoped you would think it presentable enough .
i gift-wrapped it in your favorite football teams wrapping paper, even thought they suck .



my heart .


in a line up of so many healthy, fresh, beautiful hearts ...you chose mine .
my... last one picked in the dodgeball game - heart .
my... one left for dead- heart .
my... so heavy from all the things experienced-heart .
but nevertheless, you picked it up , despite the crane needed to lift it .

you take better care of my heart than i ever could .
so here it is .
meek, mild, and calm .
gracious, kind, and healed .
it may be worn down, but when it comes to you ... loyal would be an understatement .

sing it "B" .

this song . smh

breast cancer fact of the day ...

Many studies support a link between alcohol intake and an increased risk of breast cancer. One analysis pooling the data from 53 studies found that for every one alcoholic drink consumed per day, the relative risk of breast cancer increased by about seven percent (a 1.07-fold increase in risk). Overall, women who drink two to three alcoholic beverages per day have a 20 percent greater risk of breast cancer (a 1.2-fold increase in risk) than non-drinkers.

Alcohol may increase the risk of breast cancer in a number of ways. It can alter the way a woman's body metabolizes estrogen, causing blood estrogen levels to rise, which may in turn increase the risk of breast cancer. Drinking alcohol can also reduce blood levels of the vitamin folic acid. Folic acid plays a role in DNA synthesis and repair. Low levels of the vitamin may make it more likely that DNA is incorrectly copied when cells normally divide. Such errors can lead cells down a pathway to become cancerous.

recap !!

soooo, i have been slackin on the blogs .
but ONLY because i have been home in california since thursday :)

saturday, hung with daren & kyle and dom for a little bit .had coffee with my sister cort :)
reunited with my boyfriend (the color purple style) lmbo .

sunday, on my way to church ... my tire blew out on the freeway ! so sad .
[i was told that my rims are too big . psh, ill just stay in denial lol]
went to martee's in chino hills and we had a girl night .

monday, sushi with the girls ! yummmm .



then , heart heart heart with the lover again .


...i'd say it was a good trip :)

10.18.2009

breast cancer fact of the day .

if youre in a good place financially, and you wanna save a life ...
you can donate money to help women get mammograms (scanning of the breast for tumors) :) .


https://www.nationalbreastcancer.org/gift/

hershey kiss, bite-size .

you know those kisses when he pulls back and you stick on to his lips for a little longer than you should ? & he notices ...and smiles ?

mm hm, that's love .

10.16.2009

breast cancer fact of the day ...

Every year, i would do the Revlon Women's cancers run/walk of Los Angeles .
This marathon is so inspiring . Thousands of people gather around USC for celebrity speakers, vendors and food. You will see women who have just been diagnosed to women who are 30 yr survivors !! Most importantly, you will see all of the family and friends who walk to support a woman with cancer ... or walk in memory of one .


register to walk, donate, support !

www.revlonrunwalk.com/la/index.htm


our first walk :X



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work suit ;

i just realized today that i am ... BOSSY .
not in the cute five year old, pouty lip way .
not in the sultry, sexy, kelis kind of way .

Bossy in the...
need to be in control of the situation cause i know i will do it right .
always wanting to be the leader cause i know how it should be done .
stressed cause the pressure is on me .
stressed because i put the pressure on myself .
bossy in the ...
friends rolling their eyes at me in the car [when i tell everyone what time we have to leave the party] kind of way .
demasculine men of all minds and land type of way .

bossy in the ...
i want the best for my friends and i love them kind of way .
bossy in a ...
motherly care kind of way .
bossy in a ...
mastered the art of advising my friends on their issues by simply giving them a look .
bossy in a ...
speak up for others who are defenseless .
bossy in a ...
moral, principled kind of way :)

yea, im a boss .

10.15.2009

breast cancer fact of the day ...

there is a breast cancer gene that makes people a lot more susceptible to getting the disease. it can be passed down hereditarily.

to understand the gene, click this link:

http://www.cooperhealth.org/content/greystone_23457.htm

10.14.2009

breast cancer fact of the day ...


pleaaase check out this breast cancer awareness clothing line ! i absolutely love it . its called "save the tatas (tah-tahs)" .

http://www.savethetatas.com/

moviesssss :)

this movie is called , "New York, i love you" . it has been very under-rated ...but has so many great names [bradley cooper, orlando bloom, natalie portman, and of course my lover shia] and it seems to be dripping with a romantic theme :)


one of my favorite poems :)

[it's a tough read, but when it is understood ...it's truly romantic"]

John Donne's "A Valediction: Forbidding Mourning"

As virtuous men pass mildly away,
And whisper to their souls to go,
Whilst some of their sad friends do say,
"Now his breath goes," and some say, "No."

So let us melt, and make no noise,
No tear-floods, nor sigh-tempests move ;
'Twere profanation of our joys
To tell the laity our love.

Moving of th' earth brings harms and fears ;
Men reckon what it did, and meant ;
But trepidation of the spheres,
Though greater far, is innocent.

Dull sublunary lovers' love
—Whose soul is sense—cannot admit
Of absence, 'cause it doth remove
The thing which elemented it.

But we by a love so much refined,
That ourselves know not what it is,
Inter-assurèd of the mind,
Care less, eyes, lips and hands to miss.

Our two souls therefore, which are one,
Though I must go, endure not yet
A breach, but an expansion,
Like gold to aery thinness beat.

If they be two, they are two so
As stiff twin compasses are two ;
Thy soul, the fix'd foot, makes no show
To move, but doth, if th' other do.

And though it in the centre sit,
Yet, when the other far doth roam,
It leans, and hearkens after it,
And grows erect, as that comes home.

Such wilt thou be to me, who must,
Like th' other foot, obliquely run ;
Thy firmness makes my circle just,
And makes me end where I begun.

10.13.2009

breast cancer fact of the day ...

The Myth
Finding a lump in your breast means you have breast cancer.

The Truth
If you discover a persistent lump in your breast or any changes in breast tissue, it is very important that you see a physician immediately. However, 8 out of 10 breast lumps are benign, or not cancerous. Sometimes women stay away from medical care because they fear what they might find. Take charge of your health by performing routine breast self-exams, establishing ongoing communication with your doctor, and scheduling regular mammograms
.

break my heart, but leave me the pieces .

welpppp, i was reading blogs and ran across iman's [even though she's jank & hasnt talked to me in forever lol...but i digress]. it inspired me:

Question: Is heartbreak really that bad ?


"Heart, We Will Forget Him" by Emily Dickinson

Heart, we will forget him,
You and I, tonight!
You must forget the warmth he gave,
I will forget the light.

When you have done pray tell me,
Then I, my thoughts, will dim.
Haste! ‘lest while you’re lagging
I may remember him!
Whoever said it was better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all was so full of himself . Heartbreak is nothing pretty. At the same time, I think labeling "heartbreak" into some kind of romantic, generic category is an injustice to love. Everyone had a different story. Some people met their lover in highschool and realized that they werent meant to be after years . Some souls were crushed when they were left for someone else. Some people were completely thrown off guard and never saw the devestation coming . Some were lied to, manipulated, cheated on. Some gave everything they ever had to please theyre lover ...to get nothing in return . Everyone has a heartbreak to call their own .
Everyone had a different lover . Some of our heartbreakers were the best people we ever knew . The way they looked at you ...like no one else mattered. Their kisses that made your knees weak . The laughs, the comforting times, the inside jokes, the places that you went that make you smile . Athletes, actresses, smart, gorgeous, halarious, intimate, romantic, strong, rough, ambitious ...their are so many characteristics that made us fall for the ones we did .
Yes, heartbreak has many different components ...however they are all the similar because they hurt like a million papercuts in between your toes and thighs . i stand by the statement that if you experience true heartbreak, your heart literally hurts . the pit of your stomach churns and your breathing is unpredictable . you dont know what to think about, you dont know what to say ... your faith in everything is shot to hell . heartbreak hurts .
BUT
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At the end of the day, heartbreak spray paints a mural in our hearts . a tribute to ourselves nonetheless . all of the times you argued in public with them . all of the times you endured public humilation at the expensive cost of "love" that you couldnt afford in the first place. all of the times you had to cry . all of the times you felt inadequate and worthless . all of the times you believed them and felt stupid . all of the phone calls that you knew was bad news . everytime your heartskipped a beat while going to their myspace and facebook pages . it paints a picture on your soul that is dark, but courageous . painful, but gorgeous .
Heartbreak can either scar you beyond repair or be the cool scar that you can brag to yourself about .

smh lol . since when is this okay ?

10.12.2009

breast cancer fact of the day ...

Breast cancer in men is rare. However, 1,910 new cases of male breast cancer will be diagnosed in the U.S. during 2009.

10.11.2009

diary of a mad fat woman >:0

where did this come from ?
since when could my tummy talk ?

there arent earthquakes in atlanta ?
well, why are my thighs shaking like 8.5 on the rector scale ?

i have more face than last month .

dear back fat, nice to meet you ...but could you move to my breast and butt please ? thanks .

cafeteria trips , pizza ordering , chinese food , philly cheese steaks , ice cream trips to the grill , sugar sin , grease guts, fat fits, and calorie clinching until your pants dont fit .

im just sayin :X

lmbo .

breast cancer fact of the day ...

Although rare, younger women can also get breast cancer. Just five percent of all breast cancers occur in women under age 40 [17]. Women who are diagnosed with breast cancer at younger ages may have a BRCA1 or BRCA2 genetic mutation. These genes are important in the development of breast cancer. Women who carry defects on either of these genes are at greater risk of breast and ovarian cancer. For BRCA1 carriers, the chance of getting breast cancer ranges from 60 to 90 percent. And for BRCA2 carriers, estimates range from 30 to 85 percent [18-22]. So while the risk of breast cancer is generally much lower for younger women, there is still a high risk for some.

10.10.2009

breast cancer fact of the day ...

Breast cancer is a type of cancer where cells in the breast divide and grow without normal control. About 85 percent of breast cancers begin in the mammary ducts. However, some tumors can be aggressive, and grow much more rapidly.

In loving memory my mother Stephanie Renee Darden

a broken bandaged promise .

cupcakes floating above my head in tall, dusty brown fields of wheat . fairies engulfed in the scent of sharpie markers dance to corinne bailey rae with me . fushia flowers appear and sing along in unison, altos . The sun presses his cheek up against my face; im scared at first, but it feels like bed sheets fresh out of the dryer .

a fairytale ?

when you tell me, "ill see you tomorrow" or "ill call you tonight" is that not a fairytale ? when you experience certain things, promises of the future do not exist. when you experience certain things, nothing is of certainty ... its a feeling of constant being lied to. the person on the other side of this fairytale has no idea that she/he is a culprit of optomistic deceit ... they should not be held accountable . its me . when you experience certain things, all you have is now . it makes you question your morale and principle . should i rob a store? i might not even make it back to my room tonight . should i miss my classes today? i may not even see sundown .

At the same time, my principles and morale create the form of my soul ... not my PERSONALITY. and with that being said, my soul is tricky that way . It feels like life is too short to lie and life is too uncertain to not live .

but at the same time, my soul expresses that life is too uncertain to fully trust promises .

a rock and a hard place .

10.09.2009

breast cancer fact of the day ...

Although white women have a higher diagnosis rate, Black women have a higher mortality rate of breast cancer . See a doctor ladies, early detect yourself ...

10.08.2009

breast cancer fact of the day ...

unfortunately, 192,370 new cases of breast cancer will be diagnosed in women in 2009 .

the counter =X

sooooooo, my boyfriend asked me if i can see how many people check out my blog . i told him that i didnt want to know because i would probably feel pressured to produce some type of "greatness" . Nevertheless, that curiousity killed this cat ...it haunted me lol . sooooo, i got a "counter" .

i just wanna say a huge "THANKSSSSSSSSS !" to everyone that checks out my blog . i really appreciate it & dont be shy about feedback, good or bad ...its all interesting to me :)


all my love,
Stevi

10.07.2009

think pink .

October is BREAST CANCER AWARENESS MONTH .

so many people are worried that they will get breast cancer because of a close member who had it before them . That fear is a legit one . However, early detection really saves lives ! Everyone thinks that breast cancer cannot happen to them . Let me tell you, it can and it is more common than you think .

Every day, i will put breast cancer facts &/or awareness tips :)


R.I.P
My Grandmother Courtney Beasley


the anti-social social networks

OMG . LOL . FML . LMAO . LLS . AF . HMU . KIT . WTF . WYD
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scratching , fiening for a little red box in the right bottom corner of my screen . update , update , update . "new wall post" "someone tagged you in a photo" "new invite" the little "one" in the inbox ribbon above the feeds . i wanted it all . "@reneexcellence" , trending topics about nothingness , twitpics that patronize other people . the networking poison -_-

I decided to give up facebook and twitter for one week to focus more on God. After one week, i realized how fixated i am on these networking sites and how much of a distraction it can be at times . Even more so, i am aware of how these updates are affecting my psychological health . all i ever read is about "#3thingsaftersex" or negativity or people declaring what they hate about people ... or people trying to convince the world that they are secure with themselves . blah blah blah .

people dont understand how NEW technology is . The first portable cell phone was made in 1973 ... and it probably wasnt accessible to the public until years later. Hell, people were still sporting pagers until about the 90's. Similarily, the world wide web wasnt even created and distributed until the late 80's . WE HAVE NO IDEA how this stuff will affect us in the long run . making our relationships and social skills dependant on technology and internet is changing our psyche in ways that we cant even imagine . mark my words .

Of course technology is needed to get things done at a faster rate for business . but why do we depend so heavily on gizmos and gadgets to help us build relationships with friends, family, and significant others. Are we that busy, that shy, that cowardly, that anti-social that we cant talk to these people face-to-face for a personable experience ? hmm .