7.07.2009

non compis mentis

one lover in one lifetime is a fairytale .
however, soulmates are God's designated roads for life .
happiness is superficial .
nevertheless, joy is a set condition of the heart .

it's these hairline distinctions that drive lucidity into a spiral of confusion and fear . the insanity of listening to your heart or mind . the insanity we go through just trying to recognize who's voice is who's . i imagine the mind's voice sings like musiq soulchild ... sounding lovely , creeping into your everyday affairs . logical . sensible . i imagine the heart sings like maxwell ... all passion, less sensible, screaming into the soul intil it expands the diameter . this listening game puts me on the edge of bliss and affliction .

Listening to the mind who reads the statistics :
  • how many times you've been hurt .
  • defense mechanisms to make sure you dont invest all of yourself in one person .
  • filing a lie into the "white lie" drawer or the "manipulative bastard" file .

" Hearing the heart who blends his smell with the memories of first kisses .
All of the feelings that make you shake . A creation of every pleasant taste,
sound, and vision mixed into a batter of hope .

HOPE

. it's the reason why we try again and again , despite what the others
did before . At the same time, f e a r
stems from this Maxwell-like voice . It yanks up the
memories of tears and shame and discomfort . it props up barbed wire around
itself to keep the enemy out . embraces, genuine, comfort, the death of me ."

at this point, insanity would be an understatement ;


song: love by musiq soulchild .

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