thank God for nagging sisters.

I read a twitter post today that said, "Don't Wait. The time will never be just right. - Napoleon Hill". 

Now, I have no clue if Napoleon Hill really said those words (we love to treat twitter like a scholarly source) but I DO know that the tweet hit home for me. Just two days ago, one of my strongly-opinionated (but loving) friends berated me on the phone. She was telling me that i cannot wait for "perfect timing" because there is no such thing. I listened half way with my eyes rolling and then realized that I was definitely waiting for something that was not coming - a euphoric circumstance. That, my friends, is when your soul, mind, heart, circumstances, relationships, career, familial situation, and finances are all in the perfect place. This is when you have all of the answers, all of the time, and all of the security that you can possibly have in every aspect of your life - forever. Yeah, that doesn't exist. We are often times waiting for the "perfect circumstantial bus" to pick us up ...and well ... we'll be waiting at that bus stop all day.

It kind of reminds me of diving into a pool of cold water. You stand there, impatiently. You anticipate how cold it's going to be and you think that if you wait long enough then the water will "magically" become room temperature. You even go far enough to dip your toe in the water (and nine times out of ten, this makes things worse). The only solution is to jump in the pool and test things out. If it's freezing, then you will wade around in the pool and get adjusted. Our minds can be our biggest handicaps at times. 

So, while my friend is badgerring me about the things that i put off, I listen as humbly as I can without arguing back (lol). She was right, though (and loving). Waiting for the perfect circumstance will have you waiting forever. Besides, a lot of the time, success comes to us during the times when we are outside of our comfort zone. Sometimes, we simply have to dive in. 

let there be dark ?

can someone please tell me : what is it about the darkness that makes us ...change ?
contrary to whodini's profound words , it's not only the freaks that slip out of the corners when the sun comes down . emotions are released when their is not much sunlight to expose it . truths tend to come out when the clocks strike twelve . people sip their martini's, dance, and exchange flirty eyes from across the room ... in the dark . it seems like something about the moonlight makes us ...courageous ?

you ever been to a house party in highschool ? when the lights are on, everyone is walking around ... talking, awkward and strange . However, as soon as someone hits the light switch, legs are in the air, people are dry humpin' on the floor (aha) ...a complete "180" !

is our "real" personality ...the one we expose in the darkness ? in the night, we can cry in our pillows . in the night, we can confront our demons . in the night time, we can be our 'mushy-but-not-mushy' self with our sweetie . it seems as though the darkness is a skeleton key that unleashes everything that we are too scared to be under the sunlight . the same girls i see on campus , so composed and classy and 'greater than thou' in the daytime ... are the same girls i see in the most compromising of situations around 2am . they know that we see them, but they think the darkness is some kind of masquerade ball mask with glitter and feathers. hiding their identity .

maybe it's because we want to relax and get loose after a long day ? maybe its because no one could clearly identify you in the dark ? maybe it's because society creates an excuse for the dark ? perhaps you simply feel more comfortable when the sun is gone ? who knows ... do you ?