Showing posts with label faith. Show all posts
Showing posts with label faith. Show all posts

8.21.2012

a battlefield of the mind


life is a mental and spiritual battlefield. Life is truly going to be what you make it.  You have the choice and power to shift your mind towards certain energy and thoughts. Some moments may be more of a struggle than others, but each moment counts.

Have you ever heard of the term “muscle memory”?  It is a second nature habit that is acquired through continual repetition.  If a person plays “Twinkle Twinkle Little Star” on a piano over and over again, they will eventually be able to play the song without any thought at all. Now, if the pianist practices the song perfectly then it’s beneficial. Imagine, however, if the pianist practiced the song incorrectly, everyday, for three years. It’s a pretty hard habit to break. The same muscle memory works with your mind. When you continuously find the positivity in your life, it becomes easier to call on your inner joy. However, when you exercise a mindset of bitterness and negativity, your spirit will get accustomed.

When adversity strikes you, you have the choice to recognize that moment as the enemy’s attempt to steal your joy. You have the option to seek out the light in the darkest moments. When faced with hardship, you have to be resourceful with the thoughts you have. I’ll give a personal example. I lost my mother at the age of sixteen. It was by far, the hardest day of my entire life. Now, when I face adversity, I have two mental and spiritual options:

1.     I could stack the problems I have on top of one another and sit underneath the burden. I could say, “God, why this too?” I could gather the all my hardships and pile them until I feel overwhelmed and sit in that misery. Trust me, it has happened. When I lost one of my bestfriends, Samantha, I thought, “God, why am I losing another person close to me? My mother, now her?” I piled all of my frustration (my finances, my stress, my past heartbreaks, my past losses, and the deaths of my loved ones) and pitied myself for all of the things that hindered me. Honestly, that’s the worse thing you can do. It makes you self-deprecating and selfish.

2.     I also have the option to use my hardships as a litmus test for the next trial I encounter.  When God says that he will never give you more than you can bear, he isn’t lying. You simply do not know your own strength. When my mother died, I thought my mind would “snap” at any moment. I literally waited for the moment that I would go into a dark, mental place. Instead, I found strength in myself that I did not know existed. Now, when I come across adversity, I have to stop and think, “Stevi, you have endured worse. Through Christ, you have the means to get through anything.” Yes, you will cry at times and fall apart. Yet, you have to get back to joy. Even when you do not have the solution directly in front of you, put faith in God that things will work.

The mind and spirit are muscles that need to be exercised continuously. It is the little things. The key is to keep awareness about you. You need to remember that everything is not about you. things could be worse. things will get better.

“We will never enjoy life unless we make a quality decision to do so,” Says Joyce Meyers, “Joy and enlightenment are available just as misery is available. Righteousness and peace are available and so are condemnation and turmoil.”

8.06.2010

outstretched palms .




every year i blow out an extra candle on my birthday cake . for every flame that's extinguished on the wax, another morsel of warmth in the world is pushed away as well . "either you die a hero, or you live long enough to see yourself become a villain ." the more breaths you take in life, the more you see the wrong in the world . it's scary how it can take something out of you .

society wonders how people can do things like gangbang, steal, lie, or backstab each other . if a person is born into an environment that is selfish, full of deceit, negativity, and violence ... morality can seem like a fairytale . my friend asked me, "in school... how come its so easy to go from an A to a F, but so hard to go from an F to an A ?" the same thing applies to CHARACTER . some people are born in an "F" situation and its so hard to believe in things in the world that are genuine & real . others are born in an "A" upbringing, but encounter so many baleful people ... that they lose faith in the act of H U M A N I T Y .

im no idiot ... this summer, i have met & made some real friends . some others are called "friends" as a mere casualty . smiling in my face, but sneaking behind my back ... yet & still, i know everything smh . & that kind of stuff can grow a fungus of distrust in hearts . my friends getting their hearts broken, people using you, people starving, folks being killed, financial woes, corrupt governments, illness, and messed up circumstances . i just refuse to let the hardships of life to make me into a hard person . if 98 out of 100 people in the world fell into corruption, i would want person #99 to have some faith in me ...

3.28.2010

wishful wanting .




i want to . . .

hug you . kiss you . walk together . hold hands and skip down the street together . do the 'diddy' dance together . eat lobster . eat yams . with macaroni & cheese . cook with you . tacos, pasta, pancakes, oh , eat grilled cheese sandwiches . or peanut butter & banana sandwiches . hell, eat . watch heist movies . comedy movies . chick flicks . wait, spike lee movies .

i want to . . .

read to you . WRITE WITH YOU . do homework with you . sing songs to you . musiq soulchild . no beyonce . wait, hum to you ? smile at you . laugh with you . . .with only jokes that we understand . jog in place because we laugh so hard that i have to pee , with you [well, not pee with you] . sleep with each other . stay up 'cause insomnia with each other .

i want to . . .

shop with you . pick out shoes with you . no, clothes . . .whatever . learn with you . talk with you ... life, politics, music, past, present, future, love, family, nothing, ethics, perspectives . travel: go to paris with you . and milan, africa, fiji, west indies, greece, brooklyn, miami, san fransisco, hell . . . orange grove . cry with you . open up with you . do absolutely nothing with you . learn with you . pray with you . feel beautiful with you . grow with you . be around you . be with you .

one realization to recently smack me in the face ... we do not always get what we want . we just have to wait for God to provide what we need ♥