1.19.2012
so i know it's real.
5.21.2010
brutus vs. ceasar .

they say, 'keep your friends close . . . keep your enemies closer '?
i think whoever said that implied that our friends just might be our enemies .
you see, everyone is fake to a certain extent . we pretend to be someone else in public . we are concerned about our gossip ...but IN DENIAL that it might actually be true . we say things we don't mean . sometimes we even come into situations, experiences, places, and relationships with ulterior motives . to be clear, people are not always looking out for you like they claim . you can't trust people :
* you know those people who hit you up on facebook all the time ...not because they want to know you, but they want to meet your friends ? they USE you for your connects, a date, parties, etc ?
* you know the 'friend' who comes shopping with you ? you hold up two shoes and they always seems to pick the one that make you feel awkward ? now, your friend may simply have a different style taste . BUT, when you see them a week later in the shoes you put down ? ... no bueno .
* you know the friend who likes to throw salt on you coincidentally when you're surrounded by the opposite sex ? hmmmm .i'm just saying that people don't 'keep it as real' as much as they claim to . people who want you to choose sides in their arguments, when in all actuality ...they are just as capable of being triflin' as they accuse others to be . hell, i have some fake people around me as well . they think no one notices their dirt, but it's all been laid out to me. the things i know about some of my fake 'friends' could curdle milk, but i remain quiet . girls who cant stand me, but want to be in pictures with me ? guys who 'want a friendship', but really want my legs spread like butter . girls who pass judgement on me for who i am ? guys who are scared to 'seem' like douche bags, so they straight up LIE about who they are . i know more than they think i do ... sometimes, it's just best to shake your head & undermine them with a smile . i wonder if it's best to keep those people close ? sure, you're close enough to see their dagger ... but you're also close enough to get stabbed ...
11.18.2009
peeking through . . .
you ever have a moment in your life when you knew things were going to change in your life ?sometimes it can be the simplest thing like a new hairstyle . that new cut is going to change the way people perceive you .
maybe you're buying the new car that you've been wanting for a minute and you know you're gunna get more girls than you ever have before lol .
perhaps, someone close to you has moved away . the way you look at happiness will have to be in gaps, rather than fluid bliss .
sometimes it can be a career decision or a school choice or a bad choice that will spin your life in a whole new direction with all new circumstances .
but the most subtle of realizations are the ones when you meet someone that you know is going to change things for you . sometimes, its a person that is going to end up an awesome friend along the way . the godmother of your children, maid of honor type of friend that you have been searching for . The kind that will take off her heels in front of a club and hop in a girlfight for you . The kind of friends that will bring you snickers candy bars when your mother passes cause they know it's your favorite. Those kind .
