misadventures of an awkward black girl ... episode 2

pour les oiseaux .

ever feel both smitten & sickened ?
-feeling like someone is pricking you, just to see if you'll bleed ?
ever been so tired, you numb up ?
... scraping off access memories from the sides of your mind, so mold wont build .

--the vital character traits of love are volatility & senselessness ... you bury it 6 feet under & it'll rise from the soil like a zombie. --

hypothetically speaking , of course .

everyday is saturday night .

a wacky testosterone whirlwind .
where eyes, lips, arms, abs, and adam's apples bend ;
or any other generic male name
once the tongue speaks, it's all one in the same ?

qualifications and burdens shaken and stirred
ambitious, independent cheater, caring, needy, loving, liar, activist, - what a blur .
i'll close my eyes and duck duck goose you .
i suppose you're all interchangeable .

"you're not opening up to me"
"why you not f*ckin' with me?"
"you looked good last night ..."
"i bet you got a man, right ?"

maybe, in this masculine mush is "the one"
a guy that 'gets me' with a huge heart, weighs a ton .
but like drake said, "knowing me i missed it . cause me dedicating
my time just isn't realistic ."

dont double standard me & shake your head,
men think this all the time .
a genuine, logical thought
it just so happened to rhyme ...

come onnnnnnn bro . [lmfbo]

this girl is 'supposedly' 23 years old [even though she's acting like her shoe size] . if you don't have a tattoo, i bet you wont want one after this lol .

whaaaaaat ?

. . . LMFBO . did my man really just walk away ??

once upon a time

can we make a love story ?

can we hold hands and embrace the way our fingers press inappropriately ?

i mean, if our fingers were legs . . . it wouldn't be a love story .

can we trap our happiness in the space between our lips in that first second that they part from a kiss ?

those breaths between kisses make neon bliss in my soul ;

bright, vibrant , embarrassingly noticeable .

inhale, exhale, exhibit, inhabit . . . life like love .

can we make a love story ?

whispering to one another even though no one else is around to hear .

history of headache, heartbreak and hell lift from our bodies to fog up the windows .

can we smirk at one another?

smirks that are so sweet & silent that they deafen our ears ?

lets break the rules of sound and sight ...lets rearrange it .

i want you to hear my beauty & i want to see your sighs .

we never tip toe'd around everyone else's perception .

i dont ever want to start .

we owe each other the right to happiness .

& ive never been more joyful to have that debt .

mm . john

be careful of falling in love with the idea of love :)
----> that blog will be comming shortly .

awwww (:

my nana
calls me yesterday asking if i got the money she sent . so sweet . i love her like sheesh .
then she asked if i started my job . oh lord lol .

"yeah nana, i started this week !"

she says, "ooooh whats the store called ?"

"j.jill"

she says, "whaaaaaat ?! you didnt know your nana loves j.jill ?? its pricey in there . look, this what imma do . imma look at the catalog and tell you what i want . and youuu use your discount for nana & ill give you the money ."

".............."

nana, "stevi !!"

"aha . okay nana"


...and thats how i got hustled . lmbo .

drake- take you down remix .

the only reason why i posted this is cause he says, "bust it wide open & i tell em bring it back"..haha . atl memories =)

squinted eyes .

heavy inhaling & exhaling .
shortness of breath .
body at the climax of relaxation .

yes . laughter is God's gift given in infinite generosity . from the first hour of superbaddd to that episode of family guy when he becomes legally retarded haha . life's tickles are a blessing . a good laugh pushes through the soul and cages up the frustrations of the world around you . for that split second when your chest heaves up and down and up and down ... inhabitions do not exist ; laughs that make you smirk and contemplate . laughs that make you loose 10 cool points and humble you . romantic laughs that make you blush and cheese . laughter is the cool blue in a pool of black. its a line break in the f*cked up-ness of reality .

makes me giggle everytime . lol

raven's ashy feet + lea's remedial mind =

she takes her socks off and all the dogs start barkin ,
she takes her socks off and all the dogs start barkin ...

(her socks off, her socks off, her socks off, her socks off ...)