pour les oiseaux .

ever feel both smitten & sickened ?
-feeling like someone is pricking you, just to see if you'll bleed ?
ever been so tired, you numb up ?
... scraping off access memories from the sides of your mind, so mold wont build .

--the vital character traits of love are volatility & senselessness ... you bury it 6 feet under & it'll rise from the soil like a zombie. --

hypothetically speaking , of course .

laughing freely

for all the girls who are annoyed- just say this:

i no longer care about your attention .
and i say this at the risk of sounding inconsiderate, brash, and perhaps even arrogant . i can live with all of those titles but the latter .
you see, i wasted a lot of time bathing in humility and broken mirrors- trying to justify being disrespected and unappreciated. - not seeing myself in all entirety . my skin wrinkled up like prunes and i smelled of lilacs and disappointment .

-blah, blah, blah ... lungs sore from the same story-telling .
-blah,blah,blah ... mind is offended because it was given a puzzle produced for ages 4-5 . so simple, that i tried to make it more complicated ; some men are screw ups. some guys are crazy . some guys are not worthy . this is the last time ill paint it clear ...

signed,
still BORED .

=D

soul sold to satan ?

^ welp, this dude did say he sold his soul to the devil ? i mean , it can be interpreted as a figure of speech OR this dude has been messin with some satan , demonic-type stuff . I mean, how stupid would we look if this foo TOLD us he worships satan and we brushed us off ? hmm . I was always a Kanye West fan , but . . . im thinkin' he needs to get some help . Especially with all of this "illuminati" stuff floating around(youtube it if youre curious) . im tryna wrap my mind around all of this to be honest .

c l a y .

"so ... i typed a text to this boy i used to see,

saying that i chose this cutie pie with whom i wanna to be ."

this is my "sorry" . my hands & heart have been tied up for quite some time now . where in the world can you buy rope made of sincerity and charm ? welp, call him & ask . you tried to steal my heart with a ralph lauren mask ? contrary to the expression, all girls dont want to feel like they've been robbed . rather than trying to jack my interest, you should have opened up enough for me to hand it over . i never cared what brand your mask was ...a mask is unattractive in all aspects . all i ever want is the real . materialism is a facade used to hide ones imperfections . we all do it, but it shouldnt consume us . you wanted to give diamonds and pearls, i wanted laughter and romance . you wanted to be the "typical", i wanted the "extraordinary" . honesty, maturity, openness, humor, humility, & respect ... everything you left on the shelf, HE picked up . everything you purchased to impress me with, HE handmade .

so, while you try to insult me like the little boy i knew you
were ... just watch & learn how real works . live & learn ?

all of my love,

Stevi Renee Darden

"spelhouse" my anus .

so .

basically .

i have come to realize that spelman and morehouse are full of bullshiznit . How come people dont know how to interact with one another? When i walk over to morehouse, there is this subliminal "omg a girl is here" poison in the atmosphere. I have never ecountered so much cucakin' in all of my days . thirst is at an all time high . <-- [spelman girls be on the prowl for their morehouse husband haha, psh hella eager]. i mean, nothing is wrong with meeting someone who makes you wanna nibble on them (hehe). nothing is wrong with finding a person who you click with, who you wanna be intimate with...get to know more & more .

but nonetheless, what happened to the female and male friendship ? if im chillin with my morehouse brother in the grill, it has to 'look like' something else. if a guy and girl chill at jazzmans, they gotta be talkin ? if a chick has numerous guy friends (which i prefer anyway)...she has to be a slut ? miss me with that bullshxt . where do these people come from anyway ? guys and girls can co-exist in harmony i swear . just try it out . man, it has to be this deprivation of male & female interaction that makes people into minddrones who dont know how to casually be . just be .

so many people who came to the AUC were lames in highschool and are trying to make up for lost times by being 'mr' & 'ms' AUC in college. muaha , get that nonsense outta here . who wants to be popular in college anyway ? worry about a career path or somethin, not about who knows you around campus. s q u a r e ? lol . i feel like im in highschool all over again . little boys dont know how to ask you to chill without making it a big deal...girls feel threatened if they see you givin daps & hugs to their dude. everything is sucha big deal at spelman and morehouse. sheesh , when does the growing up start ?