screw college !
let me explain ...
for these past 3 and a half months, i have been working my patootie off . i have been writing essays, research papers, doing weekly journals, computer assignments, taking tests, going to the library, and missing numerous parties .
at first, i didnt resent school . i honestly feel like my brain is at capacity, and i like bein on my nerd tip at times lol . i enjoy learning new things and i feel proud of myself when i have my priorities in order .
BUT NOW, i finished all of my assignments, papers, projects, journals, and essays . . . & i cant relax for shxt . ahhhhh ! everytime i try to relax and watch tv, or facebook cruise . . . i have this horrible guilt in the pit of my stomach like im not being productive . i know, "spoken like a true nerd, right?" i know, i know (shameful face aha) . Eff spelman for making me feel like i need to do more .and eff Spelman for breeding these robotic, over achieving, 'facade' dependent women day after day lol . man , eff this anxiety .
. . . who knew a nineteen year old girl like myself would have to program myself to unwind ?
Showing posts with label stress. Show all posts
Showing posts with label stress. Show all posts
11.23.2009
4.15.2009
fatima's 4.20 conclusion .
TODAY SUCKED ANUS:
too many assignments to count .
tuition payments are due all of a sudden.
my class schedule for next semester is gunna be gross;
housing prices went up for next year .
i have a friggin presentation tomorrow for ADW .
spelfolio is due .
& i thought my homegirl had a good dude ...but once again . nigguhs aint shxt but hos & tricks .
SO,
* after thee longest, stressiest, sus-est, hardest, roughest day of my college career so far , fatima gave me a pep talk (everything is word for word ..even the 'blah blahs') lol:
" lets just smoke . We are responsible young ladies. We don't just 'not' do something when there's a deadline. We are capable of ..blah blah...we neeeeeed a big ol pat on the back. We are miles and miles away from our parents...we stay out so late & still sleep in our own beds. we aren't receiving any C's and we wake up for class. To conclude my ...blah blah blah...lets jusssssst HIT THAT BLEEEEEEZY !! "
too many assignments to count .
tuition payments are due all of a sudden.
my class schedule for next semester is gunna be gross;
housing prices went up for next year .
i have a friggin presentation tomorrow for ADW .
spelfolio is due .
& i thought my homegirl had a good dude ...but once again . nigguhs aint shxt but hos & tricks .
SO,
* after thee longest, stressiest, sus-est, hardest, roughest day of my college career so far , fatima gave me a pep talk (everything is word for word ..even the 'blah blahs') lol:
" lets just smoke . We are responsible young ladies. We don't just 'not' do something when there's a deadline. We are capable of ..blah blah...we neeeeeed a big ol pat on the back. We are miles and miles away from our parents...we stay out so late & still sleep in our own beds. we aren't receiving any C's and we wake up for class. To conclude my ...blah blah blah...lets jusssssst HIT THAT BLEEEEEEZY !! "
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