what women want .

"Love is composed of a single soul inhabiting two bodies." -Aristotle

JAMILA SAID, "im twenty years old, and i just want a twenty year old-type relationship . . . not the same one from when i was fourteen ."

TIFF SAID, "all i want is honesty . you can forgive an indiscretion, but not pathelogical lying ."

ELYSSE SAID, "i just wanna get as good as i give ."

FATIMA SAID, " i want a guy with morals and values ..that way we can grow beyond shallow, 'young love'."

MARTEE SAID, "the hell if i know . [pause] i want someone who loves me...more than he loves himself. a dude who can communicate with me as if he were getting paid to do so. someone who takes care of and respects the women in his life. someone who's NOT a quitter and realizes that you can only get as much as you give ."

SAMANTHA SAID, " i should never have to doubt my relationship or doubt that he is doing what he says he is ."

CORT SAID, "respectful . every single day no matter what . i want him to make me feel good even if it's just 'boo, you look beautiful today.'"

LEA SAID, "i want someone who's gunna make we wanna be a better person ."

STEVI SAID, "i want a bestfriend . i want my heart to convulse when i think of him . i want a provider and protector . someone who can provide raw, untamed love, honesty and vulnerability . someone who simply wants to protect me from the world , from pain . it's inevitable to be hurt by the one you love, but i want a guy who tries to treat me like 'fragile cargo' . a guy who can see me at his finish line . . . regardless of the obstacles, past, or hardship . i want a guy who wants me & only me by his bedside ."

the world has discovered a new planet, we have gotten the first black president, we are cloning animals, we have the technology to make people's buttocks bigger . the civil rights movement happened, the haulocast ended, electricity & airplanes were invented .
so much has changed, and yet . . . women still want the same kind of love, smh .

recap !!

soooo, i have been slackin on the blogs .

but ONLY because i have been home in california since thursday :)

saturday, hung with daren & kyle and dom for a little bit .had coffee with my sister cort :)

reunited with my boyfriend (the color purple style) lmbo .

sunday, on my way to church ... my tire blew out on the freeway ! so sad .

[i was told that my rims are too big . psh, ill just stay in denial lol]

went to martee's in chino hills and we had a girl night .

monday, sushi with the girls ! yummmm .

then , heart heart heart with the lover again .


...i'd say it was a good trip :)

soo-woop pasadena lol . may 9th .

today:

1. spelman was straight gangster today tryna kick me out by 12 and shiznit . wtf haha .

2. therefore, i was at the airport FOUR hours earlier than my flight departure .

3. this old white man tried to mean mugg me at the terminal . so i went up to his ear and told him where i was from ... lmao . um, i kidd . i just gave him a sour look back =X

4. denver is wack as shxt . just by the way lol .

5. went to Tops and got chili cheese fries and a cheese burger . on bloods . ha , amazingggg .

6. got at big steve foul cause that foo left the top down on white chocolate all day ! what part of the game is that ?? (once again im lying, i couldnt get at frank lucas like that lol)

7. had a slow motion, color purple reunion moment with my brother when he came home !! =D

8. imma find out right now . lol


* in an annoyingly good mood by the way .

opening & closing of chapters .

finished my last class today .
how in thee hell am i almost done with my freshie year in college ? a trip .
as mickey as atlanta can be at times, i had some amazing experiences & met some amazing ppl .

. the bum fight in front of church's chicken after the emory party . haha
. the cabin trip with the homies in october , a messsss ! lol
. hookah, hookah, hookah !
. plan bumblebeeeee , lmxo .
. the all nighter when we walked to get donuts at 8am . sheeesh
. my trip to HOWARD to see my sis ! ly sam .
. little five point trips heavy with viv .
. all thossse kickbacks .
. allll those parties .
. dungeon buddy late night sessions ha .
. all and everyplace that raven tripped and fell lol .
. vegitarian soul food spot ! pauh'pinnnnn haha .

...just too many times to name . ill miss 'the fam' .

but:

yayyy ! back to cali . my warm bed, my mustang 'white chocolate', my sisters, mischief hehe, and zuma beach ! :) cant wait .

screw you pasadena high school .

screw you pasadena high ;
sluts . "gangbangers" . gangbangers . black & brown riots . drama . liars . haters . long nails . weaves . high heels clacking . girls fighting, smacking . those annoying seaguls . rude administration . all up in my business . wishing me the worst . hatin on my progress . wanting me to stay cooped up doin nothin . screw you pasadena for keepin my friends there . locked up . stuck . nowhere driven .

from the time the armenians pulled out guns . the 'mexicans' pulled out the knifes . we ran ;
to the time i was walking across the rose bowl grass on the homecomming court .

from the time we got into an altercation at prom .
to the times we went to roscoes to eat .

from the lousiana chicken on LAKE ... to the horchata on los robles ...from the mexican corn, to the gumbo that tre's grandma sells . to that suspect drug dealin at all star liquor store. to george's liquor store. hell, to all 50,000 of them liquor stores .

from the funerals to the 15andahalf year old babyshowers . i kiss my city softly & pull the trigger .

mmm . californication .

peel back the first layer of my eyes .

be careful , the shine extends far & seaguls fly .

sand will pour out like the sea-saltwater .

& bums & vendors will post-up and bother .

please scrape our skin .

our tans have been anxious to peep through & sin .

making men lust

just

to get a glimpse of us ...

push through my eyebrows please

you'll encounter 'in n out signs' & palm tree leaves .

red and blue flags entangled in my toes

in pain & crying singing funeral woes .

my cleavage cant hold much

but my heart & my soul

that carries my love for cali ...

im almost home =)