peace of mind .

english major mental breakdown

here at spelman, the boundaries and capabilities of my mind are constantly stretched like spandex . with a major in english, i read SO many books, critical essays, plays and poems that i don't know what to do with myself . i recently read a book that forced me to sympathize with a man who beat his wife ... i never thought i could . that isnt all:

poems that illustrated rape and pain . books that misconstrue the line between ethical and immoral . critical essays that challenge the labels of 'black, negro, african american, colored, and nigger". plays that portray a black man's spiritual castration and emasculation, some that depict the suffering of unappreciated women . i read about Haiti and their cholera crisis . i read about obama and wondered how he handles being stuck in a sea full of republican sharks ? world hunger, child abuse, cancer, HIV, identity crisis in the black community, humanity woes ... whoaaaaaaaa !!

call me selfish, but sometimes trying to reflect on all the issues and problems with the world can be overwhelming. i think one of my biggest fears is to become one of those ...

"serious people" . they are so focused with the imperfections of the world that they cannot see the beauty . they are those people at the dinner table who always have some 'educated response' to add. "well actuallyyyyy..." or "on the contraryyyy" or "excuuuuuse me? well, i have never !" they are offended by every comment and remark, they see humor as a nuisance instead of a necessity . yes, this blog is my outlet for any emotion, thoughts, social commentary, or expression .


.. but sometimes, i like to just take in a deep breath of this polluted air surrounding our deteriorating, global-warmed earth & laugh a little ;)

woooo-saaaah .

i dont know how the smallest things can piss my day to hell .

like comming outside to find that some birds (or perhaps 40-year-old men) took a shxt on my newly washed car .

or trying to print out my resume to find that i have nomore ink .

or my hair appointment getting pushed back when i had plans in my day . (and changed because she doesnt have enough time to do everything i want with my hair...wtf )

wooo -sahhh .

but, somethings make the day better:

like, eating ben&jerrys strawberry cheesecake icecream & watching the game :)

or dancing with my brother to 808s and heartbreak (heel toe, wobblin, robot, c-walkin...the whole nine) =D

...i guess it's just not the end of the world i presume ;