If this is 'beauty' then you can keep it .

HOLLYWOOD WILL KILL YOU IN YOUR SLEEP .

Many people across the country saw the season premier of "The Hills" tonight on MTV . [BTW, Before i lose all of my male readers, you might want to consider this topic as one to address with your little sisters, girlfriends, and/or future daughters]. For many years, we watched the sweet, confident, Colorado-native Heidi Montag transform under the spotlight of Hollywood. While this show has been a cultural phenomenon, no one ever stopped to ask how this public scrutiny and limelight could affect their stars . Heidi came into the spotlight of The Hills at the tender age of nineteen years old . Throughout a mere four years living in Hollywood, Heidi changed drastically.

bleaching of blond hair, overlooked . Nose job number one . overlooked . boob job number one . overlooked . nose job number two, boob job number two, eyebrow lift, ear pinning, jaw shaving, cheek injections, lip injections, back shaving, butt enhancement, and lipo in the legs . . . who created this monster ? What made Heidi Montag change from the spunky young girl in jean shorts into the busty barbie in louboutins ? People want to blame Heidi's own insecurities, and as "convenient" as that solution is, there is possibly a greater villain at large here .

There is a problem with the perception of beauty in America. Instead of a "come as you are" method of acceptance in our society, we are sucked in by a new slogan: "come as you are, but it's not good enough." Ever since the age of nineteen, Heidi has been criticized for her appearance by millions of people. To cope with the competitiveness of "sexy" in Hollywood as well as the demands of her viewers, the star felt compelled to mold her body into a new person.
When i saw her mother breakdown, i wanted to cry. FOREAL . She didn't even recognize her daughter anymore... externally or internally. Hearing your daughter say, "I wanted bigger boobs, but they said they [the silicon] wouldn't fit in" is traumatizing ... especially when they left your household with so much confidence. Hollywood is simply the criptonite to confidence . Other stars like Stephanie Pratt even admitted to battles with Bulimia. Unfortunately, California is not the only place that places these excruciatingly high standards of "beauty" on women. Music videos, magazines, reality shows, and advertisement are chopping into the souls of so many young girls . I ask women to reject these unhealthy, drastic notions of "beauty" and i ask men to have these perception discussions with young girls in their lives. Tell them that they are beautiful ... AS IS .

the skin im in

i recommend the book "The Skin I'm in"

double plated glass .

if you had to describe yourself in 75 words . . . what could you say ? i dont mean the cutesy little acronyms like, "S is for sweet, T is for tough" . booooooo lol . if you had to tell someone about yourself, where you've been, and where youre going in 75 words . . . what would you say ? im talking about self-perception . i challenge other writers to try to describe oneself . me ?

im stevi renee . I love God . i have a keen mind and i am confident in my principles and morals . i'm artistic and writing completes me more than most things could . My vice is music because it makes my soul dance, but also causes blemishes in my perception of the world . I have loved & learned in life. Regardless, i have hope in it . Family is key . Failure is not an option ... until it happens .

Has someone ever put up a picture of themselves on facebook & you wonder why they chose it ? You sittin' here tryna figure out why someone would wanna take a pic in the middle of a sneeze anyway ? Have people told you that you look best with your hair cut short, when you thought you looked your best with a 'fro (low cut > afro ..always lol) ? Have you and your friend both seen the same pair of shoes and had completely opposite opinions ? It always interests me how people have different perceptions of themselves than what the outside world thinks . A person may think that they're witty, when in fact ... they can come off as pretentious . A girl may love her new handbag, but you think it looks like someone mauled a poor rabbit and put straps on the top . people perceive things in different ways . beauty is in the eye of the beholder, but ugly is in the same, exact place . At the end of the day, it doesn't really matter what people think about you . . . they're simply living within the boundaries of their

p e r s p e c t i v e . . .