happy belated birthday, stevi.

OH ! i turned 21 on sunday. i would tell you all about it, but ... you know. anywho, i want to thank everyone who wished me a great day, showed love, or simply gave me a little thought. it was greatly appreciated :)

i don't know what TWENTY ONE means exactly, but i can sense that this marks a different chapter in my life that will exceed anything i did before. I am finding so much peace with life - all of the triumphs, joys, tragedies & everything in between. God is allowing me to see things in a new, vibrant, enlightened way. I'm just so grateful. I love myself and i'm feeling like the world is my playground. (i wonder if i sound extremely crazy, lol...nevertheless, i have never had so much clarity).

I also want to acknowledge my sister Samantha who passed away. I thought about her a lot on my birthday and i wish she could have been here to scream at me through the telephone. I'm going to use her legacy as a constant internal reminder to cherish everyday and accept nothing but the absolute best for myself.

i met emotion ;

my mind is twisted up in you .
knots and tangles and napps of you and life & school & friends & where you fit in .
thinking of you is like a psychological cardio work out .
my brain is exhausted, but nevertheless i keep focused on the outcome .
two big screws are tangling loose in my temporal lobe . who is gunna push them in ?
i wish you would . just tap it cause its leaning back and forth like a seesaw .
lingering on the borderline of insanity & brilliance .

emotion is the brains ecstasy. its the cerebral's break from ocean into the air .
you are emotion .
and ever since i met you, my mind cannot distinguish the two .
i wish i knew .