deteriorating tulips .

Dear young black female,

Since birth, you drew the short end of the stick ; not because you have a vagina and not because you are Black ... but because society is not crafted for your species . you're a curvy, spunky, feisty fish out of water and other demographics do not know how to perceive you . let me rephrase, a lot of your counterparts - Black men- do not understand your worth . I could launch the blame on them like a grenade, but that would be unfair . I need you to be accountable for this deteriorated identity of Black womanhood .

We were once the Queens of Sheba . We were the ones in Africa with numerous husbands (mm hmm), we were adored, inspirational and a power presence in our communities . Even during slavery -a time when our ancestors were raped and dehumanized- African American women kept as much dignity and strength as they could . We even stood by our men when their masculinity was ripped from them every time they could not fend for their families & humanity. We were solid support systems and brilliant women! we knew how to both lead & follow ...

Now we're "Welfare Queens" as Reagan's moronic mind so eloquently put it . Women, we are more than hips, breast, thighs & vaginae... i promise . True, our bodies are awesome & we know how to use them like we're working heavy machinery lol . However, we have so much going on for ourselves . If we only use our temple for sex, men will never associate anything else with us . we hump like rabbits and then wonder why we have all of these little whore gobblins and ratchet boys running around like they have no home training [seriously] . women arent watching their 200 kids and then they(children) get their knowledge from lil wayne songs & BET .

Now we (Black Women) compete with one another for men . we fight in the middle of the street, cut each other with words, and use our bodies as bait to reel men into our lives . See, men are not fish . Once you use bait and hook a fish, the task is complete ... you go home lol . You can hook a man, but he is not forced to stay once he takes the bait . You're left feeling used and hopeless . All you can do is run your own race and have some self-respect . Find comfort and peace in the fact that no one can ever be you . Dig deep to find security in your beauty ladies .

All of my Love,
Stevi Renee

kudos .

you win this round keri lol . NAW, on a more serious note ... i love this music video . it has an awesome story line, it's romantic, sad and it makes you realize that the people you love may not be here tomorrow ... cherish them while you can :/

thee real

i look at my life like a huge jawbreaker ;

                                                            i suck at it.  

so i sucked at life,
i licked through the many layers trying to get to the core -pushing and weaving through. i licked through the 'trying to fit in' stage when i felt like an outsider and social deportee . contrary to popular misunderstanding, America's broken-record routine is to find the newest alternative lifestyle . the new trend is to flee as far as possible from tradition & 'boxes' . i found at a young age that morale, faith & self-actualization are 'boxes' that i wouldn't mind sitting in . SILLY me .

i licked through the layer of superficiality. they say money doesn't buy happiness, they lied . that's why people are so confused . they buy a Ferrari and feel this sensation in their bellies . they swipe their credit card to buy that watch and tingle inside . see, money can buy happiness ... but it can't buy Joy . they are two different things . happiness is a quick high that leaves you smiling until you're ... not. Joy is the emotional, physical, and psychological land of milk & honey . it's a peaceful state of calm & contentment ... money is simply theoretical paper.

ahh, i licked through the false sense of affection . we go through life with family and parents that care, however in the back of our minds we wonder: "they (our family) love us because they have to . will there ever be anyone who loves me on purpose? (lol) will there be someone who sees something special in me ?" therefore, we search life for someone who cares ... and we run smack dab into infatuation . it feels cool when you're in high school and someone is obsessed with you (and vice-versa) lol . unfortunately, that dynamic is not about the two of you ...it's about the one of you . one person is obsessed about being adored, and the other one is doing the exact same thing . people are simply using & using without being accountable for the catastrophe that comes later .

finally, i reached the core . i don't mean to sound cliche, but there's a reason why love is so popular my friends lol . i need you to see love, not as a 90's R&B song, and not as a cheesy romance movie . those things are simply simulations of 'real love' ...those things are cheap, body spray scents, but hardly the real thing . Love is so selfless and unstable that it's rulebook only states, "one size fits all ." it's a scary thing, because it is so untamed & addictive, you become scared that you'll get lost somewhere between bliss & armageddon . But displaying love is all that matters, it is the only good, strong thing left in the world . IT IS OF GOD . Agape.



"Three things will last forever - faith, hope and love - and the greatest of these is love." 1 Corinthians 13:13

ladies & gentlemen, shihan .

a romantic comedy . joke . ♥

baby, no one can make me feel like you can . your face fills me up like nana's cookin' on Sundays . & on some days, i just wanna feel you up like a chiropractor . the balls of fingers on the tips of chest, remember ? love, forget the rest . like an epitome, with me...you're at your best . they can't do it like me . im like your spine boy ...straight up, you can't live without me . i make you feeeeel good, that's why you scratchin on your veins, praying that someone can make you feel the same . im tryna keep my middle name 'syringe' , poke & prick until your free will is mine ... drug you up, make you light headed like wine .

[annnnnnd CUT !]
'i'll get it right ...'
[annnnnnd ACTION !]

honey, lift your feet up and relax . you want a sandwich? a hot meal? let me whip that up & i can tuck you in bed tight . nightey-night . oh, you know you're my world right ? you're the sun that brightens my soul after darkness . i'm mesmerized by your star constellations that form in your iris, or maybe in your mouth ... full of hot air-gas : a huge black hole that vacuums the sincerity out of every -

[CUT !]
"sorry about that ..."
[andddd ... ACTION !]

you're perfect . from your shoulders, wide as the country itself . your legs that stand as majestic as the mountains of Colorado . your hair that sways like the flowing waves of laguna . let me have your babies ? leave if you please, just please ! let me keep my ties and lasso myself around your heart . wherever you go, i'll follow . no matter what, what you do ... i'm here , to take the lashes of love . i love your masculinity ... like a bull in a china shop . yeeea this is some bull[beeeeep] ...

[CUT !! CUT ! CUT !]
"tell em what they wanna hear? sorry, can't do it ."
[THAT'S A WRAP !]

-- dating is a lot of taking and giving . you give lies, you get it back . you feed em bullshxt, you'll get it back in another way . if you start dating someone with a foundation of deceit, lies, confusion and manipulation ... that is the only thing that can grow from the relationship . unctuousness and 'game' only works ...until it doesn't lol . dating isn't a script, it's supposed to be genuine . be careful fellas & females , muah !